Squishy

That’s how I’m feeling these days… Squishy all over.  I have been pleasantly surprised with how fast my “bump” has gone down… while there is still a visible redneck-beer-gut-shape to my midsection, it has disappeared quite a bit faster than I imagined it would.  However, it is incredibly squishy… along with the rest of my body.  As an avid pre-preggo runner, it’s weird to see and feel my body in this shape.  And since I haven’t been “released” to exercise, I can’t really do much about it yet.  (Though it makes me laugh out loud to think of trying to find time to exercise right now!  I can hardly find time to brush my teeth!)  And to be completely honest, my shrinking tummy got me a little excited to attempt to try on my pre-pregnancy wardrobe again – FAIL.  I know, I know… 9 months on, 9 months off.  And, looking into my sweet girl’s face makes all the squishy-ness totally worth it.J

In other news, Happy Halloween!!  It’s my sweet girl’s first Halloween, and I don’t think we’re QUITE ready to trick-or-treat, but we’ll still be putting her in her first costume once Daddy gets home from work. J  (Costume pics will be included next week!)

As I wrote last week, it’s definitely hard to find time to post on here, but I’m determined to keep it up as best as I can!  In the off-chance that I have a “free” minute, I’m usually trying to rest, do chores, bathe, eat, etc.  Our sweet girl is now three weeks old – crazy! – and though there have been many long days and nights, I’m still loving every minute of it.  I have to admit, however, that it’s even harder than I imagined.  It’s not necessarily the sleep deprivation that’s getting me down, but moreso my struggle to get better physically coupled with Cameron’s increasing fussiness.  Any mom knows how helpless you feel when your sweet baby is crying and you simply cannot figure out how to soothe him/her.  This has happened quite a bit more over the last few days, and the hub and I are continuing to try to “learn” our sweet girl well enough to figure out just what she needs.  I know it’ll continue to take time, I just want her to always feel loved and taken care of – and let me tell you it just breaks my heart when she seems so upset!

We’ve had a great, busy week with lots of excitement!  Cameron had another checkup, at which she was a little over 10 lbs… Woohoo!  We had a newborn photo shoot, and the pictures are AWESOME.  We concluded our visit with Bammy, and her leaving was sad for all three of us. L  We had so much fun while she was here and we miss her every second of everyday!  We had our first big outing to Target – which, despite the fact that Cameron had to be held the whole time, was pretty successful.  We had our first “big girl” bath – no more sponge baths!  And finally my sister and her boyfriend came in town for a visit, which Cameron LOVED.

This week will be my first full week by myself with my sweet girl while my hub is working.  I’m trying to stay confident in myself as a mom, which is hard sometimes (see previous paragraph about Cameron’s inconsolable moments).  But all I can do is try everyday to be the best mom I can be and keep her happy – because in all honesty, I have no clue what I’m doing. J

Enjoy some more sweet pics of my girl!!

 Cameron LOVES her Bammy so much!

 One of the few places she'll sleep!

 Daddy giving Cameron her first bath!

 She loved it!

 Aunt Whit!!!

 LOVE.

 Sleepy after a big outing!

 Uncle Ronald!

 SO sweet

Her 1st Halloween!