Friday, October 21, 2016

The Friday Five!

Obviously I'm not able to blog right now like I want to, and it's killing me.  I have so many thoughts, so many emotions, so many things I want to get written down.  But life is like OMG right now so sitting down and pouring my heart out and finding therapy in my writing is having to take a back seat.  So I'm attempting to document our lives a little bit, because it's the only way I'll ever remember life during these blurry, crazy days... and I'm hoping one day in the near future I can get back to writing from my heart, because oh how it soothes my soul.

Obviously the main reason for my lack of time starts with a B and ends with a ROOKS.
Oh this boy... I still absolutely cannot believe he is ours.  We all just love him to pieces.  He certainly isn't the easiest baby (see:  I HAVE NO TIME TO BREATHE DURING THE DAY)... but I don't really think it's his fault.  He's got some reflux issues, and it's basically impossible to try to start working toward a schedule/predictable routine with two other kids in tow - so poor caboose always has to deal with things changing minute-by-minute.  I really am hoping that as we get a little more settled into life as a family of five, I can work toward making his day somewhat predictable - and really it's more for him than for me.  I truly think babies thrive on a flexible routine - or at least CK and E sure did.  It's just so hard to manage things for him the way I was able to for the others, ya know?

We had such a great time celebrating our five year old, y'all!  And I still cannot believe she's so old!!  From making her feel so special on her actual birthday, to a PreK party, to her actual birthday party, it's safe to say CK loved every minute of turning a whole hand.
And as for her birthday party - I had the cutest invitation made by my friend Amy at One Good Name - seriously, y'all, she is the BEST and will create just about anything you want!

I had big dreams of having a movie theater-themed party with popcorn, a concession stand, personalized popcorn buckets, etc.  But then I had a baby and life was like WOAH and CK decided she wanted to watch a princess movie and have a princess party.  And so I threw all my Pinterest-like party plans out the window, let CK pick out all of the princess-themed decor she wanted from the good ol' Dollar Store, grabbed some bags of popcorn and cheeseballs, baked a quick cake, kept the invite list very small, and called it a day.  It was basically the opposite of anything you'd ever see on Pinterest, and CK declared it to be the BEST BIRTHDAY PARTY EVER.  The kids watched Beauty and the Beast for about 25 minutes before deciding they'd rather run around and play with balloons and make lots of noise.  Then it was singing and cake and presents and more running around, and my girl's day was made.  So take that, Pinterest.

I had my six-week, postpartum checkup this week and I basically skipped into the doctor's office so excited to be cleared to start running again!  Until I got shot down.  No running yet, womp womp.  This body needs a couple more weeks to heal before I can try to start jogging off this jiggle (she types as she eats a KitKat).

Anyone else obsessed with the Cat and Jack line at Target?  I want ALL OF IT for my kids.  It is just so so cute!
Like this hat!! I'm also obsessed with the kid in the hat... absolutely cannot get enough of his personality lately. <3

Have a wonderful weekend!

Monday, October 10, 2016

A Whole Hand



Sometimes when my kids call me mama, I still have to do a double-take - are they talking to me?  ME?!  I'M A MOM?!  When did that happen?  Am I even old enough to be a mom?

It all still feels so surreal.

And now, I am the mom of a five year old.



To my girl,

Today you are a whole hand!  And you are so incredibly excited about your birthday.

Me?  Well, I have mixed emotions.

I am sad that you are already five... 

...sad that five years have already passed since I heard your daddy yell, "It's a girl!"

...sad that five years have already gone by since you made me a mama.

...sad that five years of you have already happened.


I am so proud of you, my five-year-old.  So proud of the little girl that you are - a little girl who wants to please her mommy and daddy, who adores her little brothers, who cares so much about her friends, and who loves Jesus.

A little girl who is still obsessed with her Ellie, who thinks preschool is just about the best thing ever, and who loves raspberries, watermelon, pizza, and Smarties.

A little girl who needs time to warm up to new people and new situations, who doesn't function well when she's tired, and who loves to come out of her room once we've put her to bed.

A little girl who is so incredibly smart, so incredibly kindhearted, and so incredibly thoughtful.

A little girl who is type-A OCD, who still loves long sleeves, and who has an amazing imagination.

A little girl who is stubborn, who hates having sticky hands, and who wants to take care of everyone around her - especially her baby dolls and her little brothers. 

A little girl who, more than anything, just wants you to stop what you're doing and play with her.

A little girl who changed my life in the absolute best way possible five years ago today.

You are my mini-me, my sunshine, my best.

I love you, Cameron Kate, to the moon and back and more than anything in this world.  Thank you for the past five years, for making me want to spend every second I'm given trying to be a better person, a better woman, a better mama.

You make me so proud, bug, every single day.

Happy whole hand!

-Mama <3

Sunday, October 9, 2016

One Month of Brooks!

It's been one whole month with our sweet caboose.


How is that even possible?!

Wasn't this just yesterday??

Our first month as a family of five has been a whirlwind - we've been learning how to navigate our new normal, trying to keep everyone afloat and happy and.. well.. alive.

It has been the fastest, happiest, most exhausting month of my entire life.  

And I cannot describe the feeling of peace I have knowing that our family is complete -

Because of you, Brooks, my heart feels full and whole and like all of its pieces have found their place.

We all love you so very much.  Your dad is still in disbelief that he has two sons, your big sister thinks she's your little mama, and your older brother is equally curious and infatuated.  <Don't mind his attempts to remove your limbs.. he's still trying to figure you out>

And me?  Well, I am just so proud to be your mama, and I am not sure what we ever did without you here.  I am breathing in every breath of you - my last baby - as you are already growing way too quickly.

You resemble your brother and sister, but also have such a unique little look that is all you.  Your hair is getting so light - and your eyebrows and eyelashes are blonde.  Your eyes are bluer than CK's and E's ever were - I secretly hope you'll have my eye color!

You are the loudest, gassiest, most spitting-up baby I've ever seen!  You poop all the time, hate a dirty diaper, and love a paci.  You recognize our voices and are starting to smile at us, which makes my mama heart want to explode.

And you make the sweetest little sounds that I call your chipmunk noises... <3

Thank you for surprising us, thank you for completing our family, thank you for making my heart whole.

I love you enough, I love you so big.


Friday, October 7, 2016

5 on Friday!

Happy, happy, HAPPY Friday!
I've got the workout itch you guys!  I am four weeks postpartum and am dyyyying to go for a run!  Obviously I haven't been cleared to exercise yet, so I've just been walking around the 'hood with both my boys in the double Bob.  And I know if I even tried to run my pelvis and bottom would hate me... but I am counting down until I am cleared to work on this jiggly mom bod!

Who is excited about fall tv?!  This girl!  We all know T and I revel in the guilty pleasure of DVR'd shows once the kiddos are in bed.  I am so excited about all of the shows starting back up, and some new shows - here's looking at you, This is Us!  And we just finished watching the entire Breaking Bad series on Netflix - such an awesome show!  Now I need to decide what we'll binge watch next...

Y'all, we have been absolutely spoiled since Brooks arrived.  Local friends have been bringing us dinners and all kinds of goodies (y'all are the BEST) - I cannot tell you how helpful this is!  The post-preschool-pickup, pre-daddy-getting-home time is rough... I don't know how I'll ever manage to get dinners cooked during that time while managing the witching hour with a 4-year-old, 1-year-old, and 4-week-old.  It is only because of my awesome friends that are we eating decent dinners!  
And it is only because of my kids' grandparents that our house is not completely upside down.  They have visited and loved on us and completely spoiled us by cleaning the house from top to bottom, doing laundry, grocery shopping, cooking, etc.  But the best part?  Seeing them play with CK and E, who are understandably a little neglected right now as we find our new normal.  My trio sure does love when their grandparents come to town! And also when other family members drop what they're doing and make the trek to visit - here's looking at you, Aunt Whit!! <3

Caboose update - he's eating, sleeping, crying, pooping, and snuggling!  We're loving him to pieces, and he's already growing way too quickly.  He had a great checkup last week, and had gained over two pounds in two-and-a-half weeks!  He has a poor, torn-up bottom that we just can seem to get clear - the doctor prescribed a prescription cream to hopefully get the rash outta here.  And poor buddy spits up like no other...  So we've started some Zantac and we really do feel like we're seeing improvements!  It's so cliche to say, but I absolutely cannot believe we've had our little B for four whole weeks!

And I can't believe how well the big siblings have adjusted to life as a family of five!  I really am so, so proud of CK and E.  Cameron hasn't missed a beat, and is just the sweetest little mama with her littlest brother.  And Everette - gosh he seems so grown up all of a sudden!  And I won't lie - he cannot be left alone in a room with Brooks, because he will lay on top of him, squeeze his hands, try to pull off his toes... BUT, I truly believe it's just a way to express his curiosity, the way he is exploring this tiny little human that has taken over our house.  It's been tough with E, honestly, to try to teach him to be gentle - and he's had a few more timeouts than normal - but I am so proud of and surprised by how well he's adjusting, all things considered.
The big kids are spending a couple days in Atlanta this weekend at their Aunt Beth's house, and I am incredibly thankful we have family members who make them feel so special during a time when they've had to be so patient and understanding.  Meanwhile, T and I were gifted with two days during which we only have to parent one kid!  And with that, I'm off to enjoy my last 24 hours in a much quieter house!  I hope to soak in some relaxing newborn snuggles while also finding the motivation to be productive...
 Have a wonderful weekend!

Saturday, October 1, 2016

The Hospital Bubble + Our Village

So, it feels a little belated to discuss the hospital bubble, considering our sweet caboose is now THREE WEEKS OLD (how did that happen?!).  But I've had this post in draft mode for quite awhile and, well, I'm sure we can all guess why I haven't gotten around to finishing it... (ah hem, survival mode).

But I wanted to document and mention both (a) the hospital bubble and (b) our village.

First things first - y'all, I love me some postpartum hospital life.  TJ is always itching to get home, and I always want them to tell me I need to say just one more day.  Especially now with multiple kids at home... the hospital is just so calm and quiet and everyone takes care of you and is at your beck and call - bringing you pain meds and food and checking on you and asking if you're okay.  Aside from the fact that my bottom side is basically split wide open, I liken it to a few days at the spa because I have never felt so spoiled.  Ha!

And yes, I love my other children and miss them while I'm away...  But with this being our last bambino, I really and truly didn't want to leave our hospital bubble.  I loved every second of it - painful bottom, mesh panties, and all.

What made the hospital bubble even more enjoyable was knowing the two big siblings were in good hands, thanks to my mother-in-law and sister-in-law.  CK and E were as happy as can be, completely spoiled, and not missing us one bit!  And luckily Meme and Aunt Beth were both able to sneak away so they could come snuggle our sweet caboose!

We had several other visitors, too - which meant the world to us.  There's just something to be said about people in your life taking the time to come meet your child when he's just hours old...

Inbetween visitors and nurse check-ins and napping and doctors and food deliveries, T and I mostly just soaked in the one-on-one time with our Brooks, our #3, the one who completed our family...

Once we were finally forced to leave the oh-so-sacred hospital bubble, I really was excited to start life as a family of five.  Nervous and anxious and emotional - but also excited.  I have to admit, though, that the only reason we're surviving is because of our village!  They say it takes a village to raise a child, and boy is that true.  Especially when it is child #3.  

We're treading water over here and managing to stay afloat, only thanks to friends and family constantly checking in on me via calls and texts, the generosity of those bringing us dinners, and grandparents dropping everything to come here and love on us/grocery shop/entertain CK and E/cook dinners/clean/spoil us rotten.  So to all of you who have checked in on us or had a hand in helping us find our new, wonderful, chaotic normal - thank you, thank you, thank you. <3

We are nonstop, and we are exhausted - but we are so, so happy...